A failed suicide attempt later you have the very ill yet striking double D woman you see back before you. I'm such a loser oh my god.
I felt like my thoughts were all over the place in the last one and they most definitely were,, I’m just excited to finally getting this over with ;;
I found a new diary while looking for my earphones today, I think I’ll use it to draw. Or write, I dunno yet. I do wanna get back into drawing though even if I don’t have as much time as before, I really like looking back at stuff I’ve made. I’m still sad about not finding the folder I kept my favourite art in,, but I also don’t want to ask my mom for help. I miss how things were with my mother.
It’s so loud, I wish it was more peaceful. I can’t concentrate on my thoughts if it’s too loud, sometimes I like it that way though. I made a new playlist today, and danced to it too .. it was so fun. I like being with myself, one day I’ll be completely alone surrounded by animals on a mountain like a monk and I’ll be the happiest I’ve ever been. I’ll lay on the grass when the sun’s up and I’ll stay up late to walk while it's windy.
I need headphones. She’s so loud. I think I’ll go out for a quick walk soon, if I do I’ll continue writing. I think I’ll be able to write better that way. Update,, I did go on a walk but my net was ass so I just talked the 'whole' way and recorded it. It's genuinely pissing me off that I can't even see what I'm typing,, maybe I'll switch the host to neko idfk 3:

I finally got my network working again so I can actually see what I'm doing now. I think todays been great so far, I really have no complaints. I fed the street dog that always comes by because it was raining and she looked cold. She left when my uncle showed up though, I'm sad about that, I miss her. She's such a sweetheart. I think I wanna die. Nvm I don't know what I was on about, I love my life.

i like this

i think yesterday was good .. i don't remember much. I had a weird dream today though, I liked it. I feel weak after waking up from my nap 3: _{anddd im also very grateful for my friends.} I really don't like my mom, I don't like the house and I just want to be as far away as I can.

I feel useless today,, I don't know what it is but i just feel like i'm annoying... like the more I talk the more annoying I get. I don't know how to explain it. It's like people only talk to me when they're bored, not because they actually like it, or me. I have bigger things to worry about though, but i dunno, i feel like such a waste today .. i don't like feeling like this. I just want to buy new lashes and do my makeup. I hope I feel better soon, I don't want to ruin a good day,,,, the weathers really pretty too. i hate this day.

I hate my mom so much. so so so much. I want to leave and I want to be far away from here,, as far as possible.